I'm Sure I Sound Like A Broken Record Now

If I haven't already said it before (oh who am I kidding, I'm sure I have) MY JOB SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, so it wasn't quite the disaster it was two weeks ago, and I knew it wouldn't be, and I actually got about two hous of sleep last night, so that means I was stressed mediumly and not maximally freaked-the-fuck-out like last time, but I hate it. I. Officially. Hate. My. Job. I had serious thoughts about finding another one this morning while I was putting up the 67th 3x2 sign for Just One Year Infant Sleep 'n' Plays. I am now patiently waiting for the other shoe to drop. The dreaded coaching session. My yearly review is coming up shortly, and I could probably write it better than they could. I know exactly where I fall short. I want to fix it. I want to do a fantastic job, and I work my damn butt off, this is no delusion of grandeur, I really do work very hard, but the task they want me to complete feels so insurmountable.

Sigh.

I am so happy that Spring is here. It feels fantastic! Being in the hot tub is great because it's not so damn cold when you are traveling back and forth. Don't need a coat in the morning. Longer walks with the dog. Smoking on the porch is less abrasive to the senses. Soccer games and picnics. I'm going to plant flowers later today after lunch and before my nap.

The last thing I want to touch on before I get into the movies, books and music that I'm currently listening to, is my oldest son. I'm worried. I feel so bad for him because he is just chronically ill all the time now. This isn't anything new really. It's just that before, he would get better for awhile before he got sick again. Now, it's a great day if he doesn't need oxygen, and he's having less of those days than before. When I went to the Home last week he seemed genuinely happy to see me, which just really makes my day. I always tell him "Honey, if you just give me one little smile then I'll be happy for the rest of the day!" And most of the time he does just that. Bless his little heart. He's still hangin' in there, but my fear is that he can't do that forever.

Book I'm Reading Currently: I haven't read a book this week. I did finish the current Vanity Fair. The best article in it was one about Scott McClellan, the White House Press Secretary and how he was just a great big doofus, totally inept and clueless (Scott, I know just how you feel, but somehow I think you make more than 7 dollars an hour) and then this week I saw on CNN that he resigned. I guess I have to console myself with the fact that there will never be a scathing article written about me in a major publication that ultimately gets me fired and then it's broadcast for the whole world to see.

Best Album I Listened To: I don't have a specific album I listened to, but I did download "I Heard It Thru The Grapevine" by The Kaiser Chiefs (among many many other songs, but this one is my new current fave) it sounds like The Clash doing Marvin Gaye and it's a quirky, kicky rockin' little ditty, which gets bonus points for being a great remake and a song you know all the words to. Also, I saw Rob Zombie and Lacuna Coil in concert last week. It was all right. It didn't blow me away like Nine Inch Nails did, but I had a good time. I think that Lacuna Coil was actually more interesting. And they were the opening act.

Best Movie I Saw: Vanity Fair. I've been meaning to see this and I finally did! This was great. I know that the perception of Becky Sharp (played to perfection by Reese Witherspoon) is supposed to be that she is a ruthless social climber, this movie is sympathetic to her and she is very likable. So, I really want to read this book to see what the author's original interpretation is.

Current Sewing Project: I'm still on that Vogue dress. I just need to put the zipper in and it's getting me frustrated, but I'm not giving up.

Big News Story: Tornadoes. Last week Iowa City was hit pretty good. During that storm, we had to sit down in the basement among the mildewy piles of old laundry and cat box smell with the radio broadcasting no commercials, no songs, just the two radio news guys in this town (Brad Benowitz and Will Stevenson) blathering on and on about how the twister was headed this way.Scary. My town was spared, with just a little hail damage. But in some parts of the county there were roofs blown off barns, and a few days later going down Highway 97 I saw lots of scrap metal and debris in the fields.

If I got another job, what would it be? There was a HELP WANTED sign at a gas station that I saw this morning. So if I worked there, I could make 7 dollars an hour and be at risk for a hold up. Sheesh! I just don't know what I'm gonna do.