WHA????????

You know how I've been bitching about my job lately? Well, it is actually getting better! I might just be getting the hang of it yet. It's only took me four months, but it's getting there. So much so that I was publicly acknowledged for doing a GREAT JOB during our daily morning meeting today. WHA??? I was shocked! I felt like I was going to have a sudden attack of syncope! I can't tell you how relieved I felt to hear it.

Speaking of WHA????, my best friend called last nite with a bit of shocking news. First let me preface this story by saying that her mother just died about two weeks ago. From lung cancer. So we're all sad about that, and that it sucks to be her right now, because even tho there are times when I'm mad at my Mom, she's great, I love her, and I'm not ready to let her go just yet. Then my friend finds out a week later that her and her brother are ADOPTED. When she told me this yesterday, the first thing I said was "I always thought that you were so different from your parents. The way you looked, and your personalities were so unalike." Her parents were so boisterus and blue collar, while she is quiet (but outgoing and friendly too) and intellectual. So it makes sense. But still! I just don't think you should keep the truth from your children. I understand why they did, but I think it was a mistake. When I think about my own biological father, whom I have never met, I still have so many questions, that I could ask my Mom, but she either evades the subject or claims not to remember, so I don't bring it up anymore. Me, I tell my kids everything about their Dad. Everything. If they ask me why he hasn't called in months, I tell them the truth, and that's that he is either binging on crack or back in jail again. I don't consider it bad-mouthing him. It's just being straightforward. There are no mysteries here.

Best Movie I Saw: Capote. Now I see why Phillip Seymour Hoffman won Best Actor. It was such a peculiar performance, his speech and mannerisms intricately weird, and truly queer. Queer as in strange AND gay. The movie was singularly focused on Capote's work In Cold Blood (which I read a few years ago, and it is fantastic!) and his relationship with one of the killers. Which is also my critique. Don't get me wrong, the film is great, but I guess I wanted to see a movie about his life and not just In Cold Blood. I know there is supposed to be another movie that came out around the same time about Capote, and maybe I need to try to find that one. I also saw Brokeback Mountain. I really liked this one too. It was just so heartbreaking to see these two desperate and desolate in-love men go thru their lives trying to hide their secrets. They sort of could, but those closest to them, their families, they could sort of tell anyway. Can you imagine if you didn't really know what this movie was about, and here they are, Jack and Ennis are on the mountain being cowboys, then they get in the tent and start fucking? Talk about a WHA????????!

Best book I read: I just finished the Da Vinci code. I loved it. I'm too broke right now to buy another book so I need to just read somthing I already have again.

Best Album: I downloaded A Rush Of Blood To The Head by Coldplay. I listened to it last nite while I was making a desert for a work potluck today. The highlight? God Put A Smile On Your Face. When things get realy shitty, just remember that.

Current Sewing Project: I'm working on a red jacket. I was ready to start the finishing topstitching and noticed that the sleeves are unevenly sewed, so I have to rip one out and do it over again. ARRRGGGH!

Top News Story: A 24 year old kid from a small town a few miles from here was involved in an IED attack in Iraq several days ago. He was sent to Walter Reed Hospital in Washington and died during surgery. Heartbreaking isn't it?