N-E-G-L-E-C-T Find Out What It Means To Me

Last Nites Dream:

I had a small apartment that from the looks of things, I wasn't at very much. And for some reason, I was technically still living with an ex (SHEESH! I swear I dream about exes all the time!) because just as I was pulling up so was he. He hadn't been there for a while either. There were moldy, not merely dirty, dishes piled to the ceiling and laundry that desperately needed to be done, clothes strewn all over. And yes, this time it was VERY awkward, and I don't think I said two words to him the whole time. I had with me a relative's dog, a lively pit bull and the apartment looked vaguely like my grandparents old house.

The Nitemare:

As if the above weren't enough, as I entered the place, I suddenly remembered a kitten I had living there. Yes, I found it but it was emaciated and mewing weakly in a corner. I was horrified and quickly gave it some food and water, praying that that would be enough.

The Analysis:

I think that this dream was all about NEGLECT. I actually do neglect my housework. No, we don't live in the kind of filth I dreamed about, but I could do better. The only reason for that particular ex being there that I can think of is that I felt that he neglected me. The relative's dog? I feel like they neglect HIM. The grandparents house... I know I'm neglectful in my relationship with them and need to visit them more. But the kitten? Sigh... I DON'T neglect my animals this much I do know, but you know what? I neglect my own health a lot. Don't take my medicine like I'm supposed to, drink, smoke, and am about 10 pounds overweight, etc.

Wow. What an INSIGHTFUL dream!

The Perfectly Normal Nap And The Grand Lie That Follwed

Last Nites Dream Was:

I slept with my ex husband. Not sex tho (Ha! Gotcha!) just sleep. We laid down together for a nap. There was no cuddling but it wasn't awkward or weird. But here was the nitemare part: I had to lie to Stacy about where I'd been all afternoon and I remember in the dream just agonizing over that. Even tho I hadn't technically done anything wrong, there was no WAY I could tell him what I had just done so I made up some story about shopping for FOUR hours even tho I hadn't bought anything. He must have beleived me because I don't remember a big fight in the dream.

Analysis:

Maybe it's because my ex is currently out of jail and calling the house every other day and our conversations have been pretty normal and it's all going OK-for now (I give it about three more days before he gets picked up again for possesion). The lie to Stacy... hmmm... that I'm not sure about... I NEVER do it to begin with because he always catches me. Well, I guess that's just the nitemare factor!

Yeah I KNOW

It's been since AUGUST since I posted! But I have a new idea... Start recording dreams. What's the first thing I do in the morning when I get up? Besides pee and let the dogs out? I get online. So the dreams are still fresh in my mind. I'll just try it for awhile and see what I can come up with!